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In a revealing memoir, Martinez exposes the raw truths of his dependency on "the devil" OxyContin and his determination to free himself from it. As Martinez dissects his life, probing the myriad ways mind-altering substances affect him, readers end up rooting for him to drag himself out of this darkness. Even as his memoir begins, Martinez is already conflicted, anxiously looking for another fix. One knows immediately it will be a tough ride for him as he embarks on a bold undertaking.
His plan is to detox and cleanse in Guyana, South America. But his continual search for drugs complicates matters while alcohol temporarily eases his pain from withdrawals. The five-week trial in the dense jungle forms the most compelling part of his memoir, where Martinez seeks God-given strength to surpass the "erratic dance" between alternate reality and reality. Barefoot in this tropical landscape, his "cravings for drugs" that are "as haunting as the dark jungle" truly express his gripping, internal struggle.
With vivid descriptions, Martinez paints another part of the world as exotic as he seeks to rid his body of poison. His story is relatable, hypnotic, and unique as he articulates the mental and physical anguish of addiction that is harrowing to witness. The river of his journey becomes a dramatic symbol of his crossing over, reflecting the demons that plague him and which he wishes to purge. His portrayal of the powerful muddy, brown waters is unforgettable and striking. Meanwhile, the moment when he cleanses himself, like some ritual of spiritual baptism, is stunning. Readers are made richer by Martinez's experience in this compelling read. By its end, they are left with a greater appreciation of how some persevere in this profoundly punishing and sometimes serpentine world.